Makes You Stop To Think.....

...how precious life is and how you never know what tomorrow will bring. This made me so sad this week. It was heart breaking to me. The strange thing is if you would have asked me who Natasha Richardson was last week I would not have know. I now I have seen her in movies but really never knew her name or who she was married to. It was not until this week that I knew anything about her. Why is it so upsetting to me then? I think because she is a mother and wife and fairly young and it was such a freak accident. Everyone has had such wonderful things to say about this women and she is obviously beautiful. Maybe it also got to me because she was taking ski lessons. Soon myself, David, Ainsley, and Abby will all be doing the same thing. The first response is to say skiing is so dangerous. The thing is head injuries can happen anywhere. You can trip and fall and have the same thing happen. I cannot tell you the countless time I have hit my head hard and stopped and wondered for a minute how bad that was. My kids have hit their heads countless times. Some that I have come close to tears because they hit so hard it scarred me beyond belief. I have only once taken Ainsley in for hitting her head. When we got there they kind of blew us off. By then it had been several hours and she was acting fine. There has been a lot in the news lately about head injuries after her accident and many, like Natasha can act fine for awhile and then go down hill fast. Although more then likely most are fine, I hear a story several times a year about someone dying after heating their head. I try to put it out of my mind and try not to be a hypochondriac about things but after hearing these things it makes you more paranoid. I wonder how many more people will go in for hitting there head, at least for a while, after this. Regardless it is very sad for her family and I feel for those two boys of hers.

The Octoplets

I cannot understand this women. I don't think she is out for fame and fortune like some do. I think she is just obsessed with having children. I just cannot imagine wanting to have so many children. I am a stay at home mom and sometimes don't feel like I have enough time with the two girls. To have 14 children. Eight all the same age. She already had six at home that are between 2 and 7. Just the thought of all that overwhelms me. I am trying so hard these days not to judge. I still do, I am human, but I am trying to stop myself and say hey I don't know what it is like to be in their shoes and they don't know what it is like to me in mine. Having said that, I want to know what is this women thinking. I am sure she is a good Mom but how can she continue to be one with all of this. She has no husband or partner. She has a Mom who has publicly said she is tired and upset with her Daughter. She has no means to pay for these kids. I don't get it. I don't know why someone would do this. So yes, in this case I am judging her and I do feel bad for it, but really. Fourteen kids, all biological, under the age of seven. It seems a little selfish to me. I think her kids and her parents are going to suffer, I hope they don't, but I don't see how they won't.

Update

I got my landend catalog today and I did have a wide range of ages in the catalog. Apparently it was just a fluke before and they don't actually market by age group. Just in case anyone is interested.

I have a Life Coach....

So I went to the nutritionist today or as he calls himself a Life Coach. Look at me I have a Life Coach. Really I guess he can call himself that. He has a degree in psychology, he went to Culinary School, was a Body Builder and Trainer, has a degree in something related to Asthma and Allergy, a Degree in Nutrition, and I am sure more that I am leaving out.

I have never want to go to a nutritionist for fear of what they will say.

Cut out this.

Exercise more.

Don't do that.

I was very surprised by this experience. He first asked me about my life and what was going on. What it was I wanted to do. He then only gave two things to work on for the next week. First, exercise for 2 1/2 hours per week. It does not matter what I do or how fast I do it. I can walk around the park at a slow pace if I want. It has to be for 20 min at least to count. I cannot count more the 45 min in a day. Second, eat ever three hours starting from within an hour of when I get up and quit two to three hours before bed. That was eat for now. He will add more next time. I said to start slow or you will quit. He is right I would.

The bad part of this is this seems so simple and I have already blown it. I will try harder tomorrow. I was on track. I was going to eat again and 4. Then of course a Girl Scout thing happened and it is now 9:46 and I have not had dinner and really I should quit eating as of right now but I realize I am starving. Hopefully I will do better tomorrow. I guess I just have to. I have not taken good care of my body lately so I will just have to make the time. The other thing, which Matt had already said to me, was take fish oil pills. It is suppose to be really great for heart issues. I also know someone who took it for joint issues. We will see. I really don't want to go on medicine if I can help it and I would like to loss some wait. I still have not lost all the weight from Abby. She is 4 1/2. So I am trying a Life Coach.

On a side note he use to live in Boulder and owned a restaurant on the same street David's current office is. Small world but that is for another post. For me it is getting smaller by the minute.

Welcome President Obama, Goodbye George Bush

I thought about trying to find one of him from the front but I
really like this picture. Wow!

As I was watching the Inauguration yesterday I was wishing I had kept Ainsley home from school to watch it. I did find out that they got to see it at school, which was good but I think it might have been fun to have her with me. Abby did not watch it she watched a movie instead. I was thinking as I was watching that I was not quite six when Regan was Inaugurated and I remember watching it. I remember thinking this is something really important. I was thinking how funny it was that I would remember this. I wonder if Ainsley will remember this one, although I am sure she does not realized the significance of this particular Inauguration.

I was very moved by it all. As I watched it seemed that President Obama looked like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders. He seemed much more somber to me then most times. I am sure become President of the US must be a very overwhelming thing. I started to think that really he does have the weight of the world on his shoulders. Everyone is expecting so much from him. I worry that people are expecting to much. The are wanting him to be some sort of savior and although I like him and am hopeful it cannot be done in a short amount of time. Are we setting this man up for a fall? Have we raised him up so high there is no way to go but down? I hope not.

I also found myself a little disappointed in myself and others. I did not like President Bush. Unlike any other in my life time I could not support him. I cringed when he spoke. That is a terrible thing. I think about that now when I hear everyone telling people to give Obama a chance and get behind him even if you did not vote for him. I did not do that for George Bush so how can I expect them to do it for Obama, but I hope they will. I also was very disappointed when I heard many people boo George Bush. I did not hear that but the reports said it happened. That is terrible in this setting to boo the outgoing President. I do not remember this but I also heard that after his first election he could not even get out of the car to walk in the parade because people were throwing eggs at the car. First of all if this is true then how good is the Secret Service but also how terrible that we, as a country, can be so mean spirited. On the other hand how great that we can live in a country and boo our President without the fear of death.

p.s. I was also thinking about my cousin who was probably freezing to death in that crowd of people but I am sure it was worth it.

Webkinz Thinks Abby is Offensive

So after the whole Brownie thing I never did put any of Abby's Webkinz in. She got one for Christmas and I promised her we would do it. She got a pink and white pony. I asked her to think of a name. She came up with Peekaboo. Guess what? It is offensive. I thought both kids were going to drive me insane.

Why does it not work?
What is wrong with it?
Abby just come up with another name. (said by Ainsley to her)
I don't want to.

So I thought it was boo that was the problem. I could not see anything else with it and maybe because a lot of people are against Halloween that was what stood out to me. So we decide the best way to spell it and we put in Peekabu.

Still offensive.

What????

So I started at it and thought I will try Peakaboo.

It worked.

Guess what you cannot have in a name? The word pee.

Whatever. I think I hate Webkinz. Abby now has a Webkinz in the system named Peakaboo.

All is good again.

Diving Back In

It is hard once you stop something to get back into it or least it is for me. The one day I skip exercise it is usually over. I think missing one day won't hurt and maybe two is ok. Same thing with blogging I guess. I got busy and just never got back to it. I have thought about many things to blog about but no time, no motivation. Well it is the new year and I need to get some motivation on all fronts.

I went to the Doctor today for a follow up on all my tests from my Physical. I have high cholesterol and my Carotid Artery is thickening. I also have heart palpitations and am not sleeping well. I apparently am five years cardiovascularly older then I should be. So I ate a little healthier today. It took me forever to decide what to eat today. I also went on a bike ride pulling Abby behind me in the trailer. I am on a roll so I thought why not sit down and write something.

The thing I have to say frustrated me about the doctor today is when I brought up the heart palpitations and the sleeping and some anxiety(I wonder why I have all that) she was not very comforting but I don't know what I expected. She said if I cannot function then she would put me on pills. If I was concerned about my heart she would send me to cardio. The thing is I really think it is situational stress. It will be gone in six months or less. I don't know if I need to see the cardio person that is why I brought it up to her since she has the degree in Medicine she can tell me if I need to see a cardio person. If I knew the answer I would have bipassed her and seen a cardio person. She also said I could see a counselor to figure out why I am so anxious. Did she not just hear me say I was trying to sell a house, find a new one, and that my husband now lives in Co and I am here with the kids felling like I am limbo. I don't belong here, I don't belong there. Apparently for her that was nothing to be anxious over. Again though what did I expect from her. I am not exercising, I eat terrible, and I drink way to much caffeine. There is my answer.

Here is to a happier, healthier New Year!