A Story To Make You Angry and Sad

I just read a story on AZ Central that makes me sick. An eight year old girl was lured with chewing gum to a shed where four boys attacked her and raped her. Her parents, who are from Africa, shunned her. They told authorities to keep her that she had shamed their family. WHAT!!!! I have heard this before that many cultures blame the women. This is terrible. She is an eight year old girl who was attacked and her parents have sent her away as easily as they would their garbage. Shame on those parents and they should also be prosecuted, in my mind, for abandonment. Now my ranting in done but I really don't feel better.

Two Weeks. What???

I just realized that the movers are coming in two weeks. To say that I am stressed would be an understatement. You would think that having someone move you would be easy but the fact that I am still living here for a few weeks after presents some problems with that. Also there are somethings that I don't want them to take I would rather do it. The problem is I have not figured out yet what all of that is. May happens to be one of the busiest months in general and then throw in a move. Yikes. I also am trying to remember all the things that I need to change my address with. Yuck!

Think I should rename my blog....

Seeking Balance. Balance is not something I am good at. I seem to focus on one thing at a time and it becomes all consuming. If my focus is on the kids I neglect the house and myself and everything. If my focus is on cleaning the house I lose focus on the kids. I need to find that balance somewhere, somehow.

I started out at the beginning of the year seeing a nutritionist. I liked him. He first had me exercise 2 1/2 hours a week no more then 40 mins a day. I was ok with that. He had me take a super B complex. It is 3 pills a day but I can do that. I am taking 3 fish oil pills a day, I can do that. I take Melatonin and another natural relaxer at night to help me sleep, still no problem. I had to make sure I was getting 20 g of fiber a day, no problem. No snacking 3 hours before bed, I conquered this bad habit. Eat ever 3 hours, a little difficult but I did it. When I walked in there and he said that I needed to cut out all sugar after 5 everyday at least 5 days a week. This includes breads, pastas, beans, fruit, ect. I could only have pasta 2 times a month. I was aloud 2 slices a bread a day or one large tortilla or one bagel. So if I had a sandwich for lunch no tortilla for dinner although technically I was not aloud to have that for dinner anyway because it was after 5. I did this for 1 1/2 weeks. I was pretty successful at it. I lost 3 pounds. I then went to Puerto Vallarta. I have not been back to see him since and am no longer on that diet. In fact I have pretty much fallen off the band wagon for exercise too. Balance. If only I could find it here also. I know I cannot keep up is strict diet but it did make me more aware of what I was eating and I think I could do a modification of it and keep up the exercise but stress in my life has gotten worse and so I did not keep up with it because I gave into the stress and have gone back to sitting in front of the TV at night snacking.

The good news is that when I went back to the doctor for my new blood tests they had all gotten better. Not great, but better and she was pleased. So I had not done as good as I could have the whole time and it still got better so think what would have happened if I would have continued to exercise and a modification of his diet. I even went to Puerto Vallart and Colorado in this time and did not eat well either place.

I am going to try and commit myself to finding more balance in Colorado. I would attempt it now but I don't think that is going to happen. I must find it somehow, somewhere. So for now on this blog with be know as Seeking Balance.

To Public?

Are we to public with everything these days? I just read that Ashely Simpson twitters or twits or whatever it is love notes to her husband while he is gone on tour. David and I write notes to each other on Face Book. Why do we do this. We could IM or e-mail or call and no one would see. Im would be faster and e-mail is pretty much the same as Face Book it just matters when the other person chooses to look at it. So why have we gone to such public displays? We all blog and put personal things there also. I also do the other so people cannot see everything but why do I put some at there?

Is this a good or bad thing? I go back an forth. I like it. I like to blog. I like to do Face Book. I do get concerned about what I put out there sometimes. Sometimes I put it out anyway and sometimes I don't. I did separate my blogs so that some of the more controversial stuff was not in the same place. So is it bad or is it good and does anyone even read this blog anymore? Just wondering

Makes You Stop To Think.....

...how precious life is and how you never know what tomorrow will bring. This made me so sad this week. It was heart breaking to me. The strange thing is if you would have asked me who Natasha Richardson was last week I would not have know. I now I have seen her in movies but really never knew her name or who she was married to. It was not until this week that I knew anything about her. Why is it so upsetting to me then? I think because she is a mother and wife and fairly young and it was such a freak accident. Everyone has had such wonderful things to say about this women and she is obviously beautiful. Maybe it also got to me because she was taking ski lessons. Soon myself, David, Ainsley, and Abby will all be doing the same thing. The first response is to say skiing is so dangerous. The thing is head injuries can happen anywhere. You can trip and fall and have the same thing happen. I cannot tell you the countless time I have hit my head hard and stopped and wondered for a minute how bad that was. My kids have hit their heads countless times. Some that I have come close to tears because they hit so hard it scarred me beyond belief. I have only once taken Ainsley in for hitting her head. When we got there they kind of blew us off. By then it had been several hours and she was acting fine. There has been a lot in the news lately about head injuries after her accident and many, like Natasha can act fine for awhile and then go down hill fast. Although more then likely most are fine, I hear a story several times a year about someone dying after heating their head. I try to put it out of my mind and try not to be a hypochondriac about things but after hearing these things it makes you more paranoid. I wonder how many more people will go in for hitting there head, at least for a while, after this. Regardless it is very sad for her family and I feel for those two boys of hers.

The Octoplets

I cannot understand this women. I don't think she is out for fame and fortune like some do. I think she is just obsessed with having children. I just cannot imagine wanting to have so many children. I am a stay at home mom and sometimes don't feel like I have enough time with the two girls. To have 14 children. Eight all the same age. She already had six at home that are between 2 and 7. Just the thought of all that overwhelms me. I am trying so hard these days not to judge. I still do, I am human, but I am trying to stop myself and say hey I don't know what it is like to be in their shoes and they don't know what it is like to me in mine. Having said that, I want to know what is this women thinking. I am sure she is a good Mom but how can she continue to be one with all of this. She has no husband or partner. She has a Mom who has publicly said she is tired and upset with her Daughter. She has no means to pay for these kids. I don't get it. I don't know why someone would do this. So yes, in this case I am judging her and I do feel bad for it, but really. Fourteen kids, all biological, under the age of seven. It seems a little selfish to me. I think her kids and her parents are going to suffer, I hope they don't, but I don't see how they won't.

Update

I got my landend catalog today and I did have a wide range of ages in the catalog. Apparently it was just a fluke before and they don't actually market by age group. Just in case anyone is interested.